First off I want to thank you, who showed so much sympathy in dark hours. You are all very appreciated and special to me. ...A bit later this afternoon(CET), Ste and I are going over to meet Chris´ family.Our Girls take a seaside walk at that time. But then there is no hand to hold or squeeze when I feel like, as the other day. Even Ste hugged me to console me, no english attitude at all. I was so wrecked last nite, I felt like HMS Warspite at her last travel to the docks. I know, it´s a bit pathetic, but that how I feel. No cool air as I use to have, but a mere orphan like in Rimbaud´s "L´etrennes des orphélins". Wish me luck,peepz, you know who you are. Laters Pilgrim...P.S., Torchy, if you read me, please anwer my email.